The Distance
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Title: The Distance
Author: Kelly J. Thompson
Rating: PG
Category: Stream of consciousness Scully POV
MSR, A
Summary: You know I imagined you were with me
last night Mulder holding me so close, but never close
enough.
Spoilers: Requiem, Oddly enough none from seasons
8 or 9
Disclaimer: Not mine
Feedback: Will be appreciated at
foreverkel@zoominternet.net
Archive: Anywhere
Author's Notes: I finished writing this the day before
the premiere of Season 8. This was my first ever
attempt at fanfic and I had yet to feel comfortable
enough to post anything, so I never posted this
before now. I'm posting this now because of the
challenge posted at the XFC-ATFC
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The Distance
By: Kelly Thompson
I'm sitting in curled up in the chair in the corner of my
bedroom contemplating distance, why sometimes it
feels like you're like sitting here with your arms around
me keeping me safe from all the nightmare that seems to
be my life now, and then I feel the gapping hole of your
absence.
It completely throws me Mulder; these past few days
have been the hardest days of my life including the days
I had cancer. Here I am a supposed independent
woman, and the last few days almost all my thoughts
have been with you. The biggest thing about it is I'm not
in the least bit ashamed of it, or letting people know
about it.
It's funny Mulder but with all the things I've been though in
these years with you mutants, mad men, kidnappings, alien
abductions, near death , losing a child, etc. I've been able to
keep my cool, not getting overly emotional standing
tall in the shadows of adversity, hell I've even been though a
hurricane with no less a flinch. But, this is different, Mulder
you're gone and I have no idea when or how I'll find you,
and damn it it's about time for a breakdown I deserve it.
You hear me, Mulder I deserve it, because you took my
heart, my soul, and my faith with you .Yes, Mulder I said
my faith because you, Mulder are my faith, but I do have
enough faith left to know that you will be back I know
you'll be back. Most of my faith may be gone but I Believe
in you, Mulder, I finally believe.
You know I imagined you were with me last night Mulder
holding me so close, but never close enough. You kissed me
so very softly and told me that everything would be all right,
that you were all right, that you would be back no matter
how hard you had to fight .Was it just my imagination,
wishful thinking, or were you really here somehow?
Because, Mulder I can swear I felt your arms around me
your breath by my ear, that I tasted your sweet kiss, that I
heard your beautiful voice, but when I awoke you were
not there.
As I sit here watching the minutes pass, I know that in a
few hours, I have to go back to reality, a reality where
you are no where to be found, and the investigation into
your abduction begins. And though the miles between us
are great, the distance is not because you will always be
with me Mulder, I love you.
THE END
This vignette was inspired by the song The Distance by
Evan and Jaron
Written by Evan Lowenstein and Ty Lacy
The Distance
The sky has lost its
color
The sun has turned to
grey
At least that's how it
feels to me
Whenever you're away
O crawl up in the corner
To watch the minutes
pass
Each one brings me
closer to
The time you're coming
back
I can't take the
distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time
Until I next see you
smile
I can't take the
distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I
take
I'm calling your name
But I can't take the
distance
I still believe my
feelings
But sometimes I feel too
much
I make believe you're
close to me
But it ain't close
enough
Not nearly close enough
I can't take the
distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time
Until I next see you
smile
I can't take the
distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I
take
I'm calling your name
I'd brave fire and I'd
brave rain
To be by your side
I'd do anything
I can't take the
distance
I will go the distance
I will go the miles
That's how much you mean
to me
I can't take the
distance
I can't take these miles
I can't take the time
Until I next see you
smile
I can't take the
distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath
I take I'm calling your
name
I can't take the
distance