The One You're Leaving Out
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Title: The One You're Leaving Out
Author: Kelly J. Thompson
Category: Song Fic, Scully Angst, implied MSR
Rating: PG 13
Summary: Is Someone trying to tell Scully something?
Spoilers: Elusions made to the eighth season so far.
Disclaimer: Chris Carter, 1013, and Fox Television.
own The X-Files and it's characters. They are being
used without permission. If I owned them this fic
and many others like it wouldn't even need to be
written. The song which I used in this fic, "Leave"
by Matchbox Twenty has also been used without
permission. The song hasn't been released yet to
my knowledge any way but, you can find it on the
album Mad Season from Matchbox Twenty.
Authors Notes: This song says what I think Mulder
would be feeling right now. When I first heard "Leave"
all I could see and hear was Mulder saying those things.
I know nothing about radio station operations so, if I
got anything wrong I send my apologies.
Special Thanks to Kelly Moreland, Vickie Moseley,
and my sister Crystal without your encouragement
and advice I would have given up on this story a long
time ago.
Feedback: This was my first angsty story so it probably
sucks, but constructive critism is greatly appreciated.
Flames will be used to light candles to put in the window
to guide Mulder safely home.
This wasn't really beta read. So please forgive any mistakes
I may have made.
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The One You're Leaving Out
By: Kelly J. Thompson
foreverkel@zoominternet.net
Dana Scully stood in the apartment of Fox Mulder,
her partner and best friend of seven years . Who had
recently become her lover. She had come here after she
had an argument with Frohike about her neglecting the
search for Mulder and how quickly she had begun to
trust her new partner John Doggett.
So maybe the search for Mulder isn't my number one
priority what's so wrong with that . I do have my own
life and my pregnancy to worry about. Frohike can be
so damn infuriating at times she thought.
Frohike said that she is trusting this "Dogbert" guy far
too easily. What does he know? Anyway, what am I
supposed to do? Alienate the guy so he doesn't even
watch my back she thought. "I'm not Mulder for god's
sake, trust no one is his motto not mine" she had told
Frohike.
As Scully stood in Mulder's living room thinking about
her and Frohike's argument, the silence began make
her uncomfortable, so she decided to turn on the radio.
"This is W.F.O.X 101.3 FM the Fox and this is
Dedications After Dark."
Love song dedications were the last thing Scully needed
to hear at the moment, so she decided to change the
station. But just as she reached for the tuner knob, she
heard a voice she thought she would never hear again.
"It can't be Mulder" she whispered to herself as she
again started to change the channel. But the more she
heard, she became almost sure that the voice on the radio
was the same one that has been haunting her dreams.
" I would like to dedicate a song to the woman in my life."
" What can we play for your lady love this evening?"
" Leave by Matchbox Twenty. To Dana from the one
she's leaving out."
" Well, that doesn't sound too good. Want tell us about it? "
"It's a long story and I'd rather not get into it, but, I just
wanted her to know that this is how I'm feeling right now.
She'll know what I mean."
"Okay, Dana here's "Leave" going out to you from the one
you're leaving out."
As the slow strains of the song started to play, Scully still
considered turning the station because there was no way in
hell that could've possibly been Mulder she thought. But
when the lyrics began she froze. As the song played the
whole apartment got very cold. And she found herself
listening to words that chilled her to the bone.
It's amazing
how you make your face just like a wall
how you take your heart and turn it off
how I turn my head and lose it all
"No, he hasn't lost it all he still has me, he still has the
X-files. I still love him, I only put his nameplate in the desk
drawer. I needed to move on with my life a little, Mulder
would have done the same thing right? I mean the only
reason I gave Doggett a desk in Mulder's office was
because I never had one there. I mean the man is my
partner after all."
It's unnerving
how just one move puts me by myself
there you go just trusting someone else
now, I know I put us both through hell
" No, Mulder you still have ME damn it. I could never trust
Doggett the way I trust you. I'm not even sure if I really do
trust him but, you aren't here, he is. And I need to trust
someone."
As the song progressed and the tears started to flow, Scully
found herself in an undignified heap on the floor next to
Mulder's stereo with a jumble of wild thoughts going through
her mind.
It's aggravating
how you threw me on
and you tore me out
how your good intentions turned to doubt
the way you needed time to sort it out
"God, Mulder, I didn't want to doubt you. I really didn't
believe you had kept anything from me, that's more something
that I would have done. But, what was I supposed to do, over
look the fact that there's evidence showing that you have a
brain tumor that you never told me about? That there is also
evidence that you might have been planning to fake your own
abduction? That I felt hurt that you may have not told me about
your illness? I know you better than anyone and I thought you
didn't tell me, that you didn't trust me enough to tell me. How
could I ever think that? DAMN IT, how could I ever think that?"
I'm not saying
there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
I'm not saying
we ever had the right to hold on
I just couldn't ever let you get away from me
But if that's how you're leave
straight out from underneath
then we'll see who's sorry now
if that's how it's gonna stand, when
you know you've been depending on
the one you're leaving now
the one you're leaving out
the one you're leaving out
"We may not have had a perfect relationship, but we were right
Mulder, we ARE... right. I can't, I won't get tired of you it's just
not possible. You have brought so much excitement whether it
be good or bad into my life. I will hold on to this thing we have
forever. I will never, ever let it go. I just got so caught up in my
feelings of hurt and betrayal that I have been blinded by it. Please
forgive me Mulder. I will fix this. Starting with John Doggett
because he has to be involved in this some how, he was the one
who planted the seed of doubt in my mind to begin with."
As the song draw to a close Scully picked herself up off the floor
and dried her tears. What do I do now she thought. She decided
that she should call the Bureau and see if she could get the call to
the radio station traced. But first she would call the radio station
to see if she could get a tape made of actual dedication that
Mulder had made, so she could take it to the Gunmen and a
professional voice analyst to make sure that was really Mulder.
Scully found the number for the radio station. She got out her cell
phone and dialed the number. While waiting for someone to
answer she thought that it was typical Mulder, to leave a cryptic
message in the form of a song dedication, to give me a swift kick
in the ass so I would get motivated in this search again.
" Hello, this is W.F.O.X 101.3 FM the Fox."
" Hello, I'm Special Agent Dana Scully with the FBI. I'm calling
in regard to a dedication you just aired. I'd like to have a tape of
it copied for me.
" The FBI? Is this about a case?"
" Yes, would I be able to get a copy?"
" I'd have to check with my bosses but, I don't think it would be
a problem. Just tell me which dedication it was and I'll do what I
can."
" It was for the song Leave by Matchbox Twenty. Dedicated to
Dana from the one she's leaving out."
" Let me see if I can find it. Can you hold for a few moments? "
" Sure "
" Okay, I'll be right back "
While Scully waited for the disc jockey to come back on the
line, she left Mulder's apartment and made her way to her car.
As she settled into the driver's seat the disc jockey came back.
" Um, Agent Scully"
" Yes "
" I'm sorry to tell you this but, I searched my tapes for the
dedication you were asking about and I found that, that
particular dedication has not only never been aired but it
was never even made."
THE END
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" I was just here. Where did I go? "
-Fox Mulder-
From Small Potatoes.
Leave
Performed By: Matchbox Twenty
Written By: Rob Thomas
From the album: Mad Season
It's amazing
how you make your face just like a wall
how you take your heart and turn it off
how I turn my head and lose it all
It's unnerving
how just one move puts me by myself
there you go just trusting someone else
now I know I put us both through hell
I'm not saying
there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
I'm not saying
we ever had the right to hold on
I just didn't wanna let it get away from me
But if that's how it's gonna leave
straight out from underneath
then we'll see who's sorry now
If that's how it's gonna stand, when
you know you've been depending on
the one you're leaving now
the one you're leaving out
It's aggravating
how you threw me on
and you tore me out
how your good intentions turned to doubt
the way you needed time to sort it out
I'm not saying
there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
I'm not saying
we ever had the right to hold on
I just couldn't ever let you get away from me
But if that's how you're leave
straight out from underneath
then we'll see who's sorry now
if that's how it's gonna stand, when
you know you've been depending on
the one you're leaving now
the one you're leaving out
the one you're leaving out
I'm not saying
there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
But if that's how you're leave
straight out from underneath
then we'll see who's sorry now
if that's how it's gonna stand, when
you know you've been depending on
the one you're leaving now
the one you're leaving out
Well tell me is that how it's going to end
when you know you've been depending on
the one you're leaving now
and the one you're leaving out
I'm the one you're leaving now
the one you're leaving out